Just Breath

Just breath, take 1 breath at a time, I can do this, it is hard, but I can do this. The last 2 days have been the most trying days of my life.  The kids miss Daddy so much, and are acting out like I have never seen before. Taelin is crying OVER EVERYTHING, and is talking back, lying, doing things he would have never done before, and is being so mean to his sister.  Amika just cries and cries because her brother is, and she is starting to annoy Taelin just to be mean.  They aren't sharing, and everything that could go wrong could go wrong.  During these trying times, I have tried my hardest to make sure I keep the spirit with me when I discipline, and if I loose my temper and do or say something wrong, I make sure to apologize to them and tell them that I love them and then we say a prayer to bring the spirit back into the home.  When I remember to do these things, I am truly blessed, and I can see the Lords hand working on the kids and I.  I am grateful for these trails, because it is helping me become a better mother and a better Daughter of God. 
*The kids cry all the time because they miss daddy, so we watch videos or look at pictures of daddy, and that makes them happy.  Taelin has some driver license cards of Dalin that he carries around with him
*Taelin pulled out the sharpie and colored all over Amika's arm and both of their bellies while I was changing and going to the bathroom
*Taelin had to scrub the walls and the baseboards for lying to me and for being disobedient
*I had to put soap in Taelin's mouth because he kept using potty words:(
I'm sure there are more, but that's all I can remember
here is the cutest thing ever said to me though from Amika:
Tonight as I was putting her to bed I told her, "you is kind, you is smart, you is important" and she looks at me, rubs my cheek and pats my shoulders and says, "you important." Totally made my day and made me smile and get a little teary eyed.  I love my baby girl and my handsome little boy so much that I would do anything for them.  I am glad that I get to stay home with them and teach them and be their mommy, I wouldn't want any other job.